Feeling Lonely Again

I guess no one really cares. I am nobody. I am invisible. They ban me whenever they like. That's life here. The higher ones have the power. And me as a normal member is under control. I have just logged in here after so many years then I got banned again. Am I really that bad? Am I bad? I didn't even have the chance to make new friends. I'm always a loser. Don't I deserve to live a normal life? *Sigh*
Maybe I am just wasting my time here. Why did I even try to come back at the first place when I knew I won't enjoy. I am already a working citizen. I should do something more worth it than chatting to strangers, to the Western people who think so great about themselves.