MY COMPLETION...

The morning breeze blows through
my face. The alarm clock goes into
frenzy. My weary eyes slowly opens
to greet the light and warmth of the
dawn. Good Morning. Another
beautiful miracle, another beautiful
day. Same old routine, my heart's
physiologically whole, but still
emotionally incomplete. Still half
dreamin and dazed. I knew I needed
to get up for me to be able to find
that missing little puzzle piece.
I set out myself into the harsh world
of ups and downs. I knew I have to
start searching or stand idle waiting
to be found. There would be times I
thought I found myself to be fulfilled
and satisfied only to be broken. This
is why I grew heartlessly numb,
cause now, people try to break me
but they don't seem to grasp the
idea, they don't seem to understand
that I'm already broken. Somehow, I
grew scared along the way. Scared
of being scarred.. Scarred even
deeper than the wounds on my
flesh, on my heart. Scared of being
left behind like an outgrown
children's toy. Afraid that one day I'll
find the wrong half and be totally
crippled by the weight of yet another
broken heart. But I need to learn.
Learn someday. That everything
ends inevitably. And ends will
always s*ck, but that doesn't mean
that the beginning and everything in
between has to.
I found someone, I had someone, I
lost someone, I found someone, I
lost someone, I will find someone, I
will never lose someone again.
The sun is already setting and the
stars are starting to show. The dusk
wind felt rather blunt tonight. Yes, I
get it, I did not find it today. But I
will, somehow, someday. May be
tomorrow! So I lay myself in the
confines of my cushions, embraced
by the comfort of my blanket and
listening to the music played by the
breeze blowing through my window
pane. Let the night lull me to sleep.
And as I slowly close my eyes
tonight, I concluded that I have
searched, waited to be found but still
incomplete. Hush, as I will carry
myself to dreams. For Dreams are
the only place that makes me feel
more complete even for just a lilttle
while. And tomorrow will be another
day, another search and hopefully,
my dream come true, my
COMPLETION!