WRITTEN ON 11/5/2008: Wake up. In a cold sweat. Deep breaths. Heart pounds in my chest. Vision of blood and gore. Pain i can not handle anymore. Lay back. Calm my heart. Watch my world, fall apart. Sit up. Stare into space. Scream out. Hit the wall. Pain meet hand. Hand meet pain. Tears meet face. Face meet tears. When can i wake up and escape my fears?