a painfull memory

there's a time that I wanted to kill my self due to heavy pain!! I never know how I can conquer this pain inside of my heart..I just felt inlove but why in the end I left alone..U choice to leave me...I never know If I can stand after that incedent!!there is an angel who stand bravely infront of me and saying ur stupid he is not worth it..ur a goodess so better stand straight and facd the world with a big smile :)))