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I hated waiting , sleepless night,I hardly had eaten all day and I was feeling really worn out.He said he would be back today.I couldn't face him now more so after what Lance did,if he found out it would come complicate things further between us.The day hadn't promised me anything but I waited upon him like teenager but for all the wrong reasons. I hated the fact that he had control over my physical needs.He knew how to play with them.He knew I was still physically attracted to him and I think he was using that against me.I was getting scared,now that he knew he wouldn't let go so easily,or would he? Honestly I still loved him,alot.That didn't make much of a difference as our opinions on certain subjects drew us apart or we let it push us apart.I wish I could say I hated him,but I don't.Whenever I start to panic in a situation like this I wish I could run away,far ,far away. I had packed my bags already and was in the car.Running away would be too easy,which will only mean me facing his wrath much later.It was raining for a while now and I suddenly grew worried.He was a man of his word but he didn't turn up.Did something happen to him?What if something did happen to him?I opened the window and heard the as sound of heavy rain outside.I promised myself il wait for him till midnight and if he didn't turn up,I would leave anyway. The torrential rain soon subsided,but it didn't stop raining altogether.This was a bad omen.What if something happened to him.I wouldn't get the chance to tell him that I didn't want a divorce ,that I wanted him with all my insecurities,that his brother never meant anything to me.I looked at my watch,it was past midnight,he hadn't come as yet.I never believed in a prayer,but went down on my knees anyway, opened palms as I said a silent prayer. I was still on my knees,when I heard the door open,he stood there soaked to his skin,and water dripping on the floor.I slowly got up.I was angry that he hadn't come sooner but now I was shocked to see him here.You need to get out of those wet clothes,I told him as a way of greeting him.He followed me into the bedroom as I ran his shower,he began to undress.He was watching me closely,but I turned away quickly.I picked up all his wet clothes and put them in the washing machine,as I didn't want them lying on the floor.I heard him in the shower ,so I left.I made a mug of coffee for him and hot chocolate for me.He didn't take too long in the shower.He was standing there in just a towel and he made me feel very uncomfortable.I went into the bedroom and got my dressing gown,which I handed over to him,but he just raised andl eyebrow at me and then decided to put my dressing gown on.He looked more decent to look at now,I watched him pick up the towel and put in the washing machine,the come towards me wearing a silly grin.I handed him his coffee and sat a few feet away from him.The silence in the room was deafening,I watched him have his coffee as I sipped my hot chocolate.The next thing I knew he was pulling the mug away from my hand,and the hot chocolate fell on my shirt,and almost scalded me.I screamed as I felt my skin burn.He was pulling my shirt apart almost ripping it off!What the f***are you doing?,I demanded.First he burns me then rips my clothes off!Mind your language!,he told me.Go to hell,I yelled at him and went to wipe the hot chocolate off me.He followed me.I was trying to help,he said.I was annoyed with him.You make me wait all day for you,you come home wet,use clothes,burn me,what are you going to do next?,I asked him.He took a step towards me but I moved back away from him.I thought you were drinking coffee and you know you not allowed coffee during pregnancy,he told me.He cared? I was having hot chocolate,not coffee but thanks for your concern,I told him.The washing machine beeped and I removed his clothes and then put them into the tumble dryer.I stood far from him.Did you really wait for me all day?,he asked me.I did expect him to come sooner but now that he is here I want to leave.No,I just waited for what you promised me,I told him.Suddenly the room looked too small for the two of us.I wasn't eager for the divorce nor did I want it.He walked out of the room and went to his car,came back running with his briefcase.He handed me an envelope,I didn't open it.'We both sign it and il hand it to our family lawyer later,he said.I wasn't ready for thiis,he was too close to me and I felt I couldn't breathe.He opened the envelope band showed me were to sign,my hands were shaking,I couldn't even hold the pen.In a moment of madness I was going to give my life away, getting seperated from him.Did I really want this?I heard the thunder outside,the lightning danced across the room.Natures storm was threatening more than the storm that was building within me.I looked at him helplessly,I wanted to touch him,I walked towards him,took his hand in mine,brought them to my lips.I never wanted this,I said tearfully.I reached up and kissed him on his lips and quickly turned away,I signed wherever my name was and threw the pen on the table.I picked up my car keys from the sideboard and ran out of the room leaving behind what mattered the most to me.I was almost wet when I reached the car,when I did I somehow managed to drop my keys ,when I picked the keys I heard him calling out to me.I didn't want to look back.I was pushed onto the ground with such force,and I heard a huge bang and the sound of glass breaking. x x xx x x