i no its like its ur best friend even tho u hate it

Im so scared. Im so weak. I cnt stand up, d r0om spins, i ave 2 sit dwn agn,my head between my legs. I eat half a sandwhich n in panic i thrw it up. I cnt eat. All i d0 is xist n c0unt cal0ries, mem0rize dm,divide dm, dispise dm. Headaches, tired, weak,sick, ins0mnia.. I dnt n0 maself anymre. I want it 2 g0 away. Bt wif0t it.. I dun0. ! Hw r u c0pin? Im pretty n suicidal! Hw d0 u c0pe wif it? Hw? Tell me hw. W0t d0 u d0, hw d0 i d0 it. My st0mach is in c0nstant dam pain! Gah!

Hun u need 2 go c ya doc.their there 2 help not 2 judge or critisize u.they can refer u 2 profesionals that can help u.pls get help hun.if i hadnt gone wen i did i would have been dead within 3 months.i was only 10 yrs old n weighed unda 5 stone.

i cnt.. dey scare me..

i agree i dont think i could ever tell my doc or any1 else. mia is jus 1 of those things cat live with her cant live without her.
i hate wat it does to me but without it id lose control! any1 else feel as trapped as i do?

im wit u on dat 1. i mean wtf wud happn wifot it, get fat agn, im neva eva goin der agn, id rada die dn b fat. sick maybe bt i dnt cre. beauty is pain n were payin it. lyk i used 2 b 120kgs, dats 240lbs, nw im 57kgs, 114lbs, i wont rest til im max 50kgs, 100lbs.

u mia or ana hun?

startd as mia.. bt nw ... jisses..

ahhh help!! wat do ya do wen 1 of ur family members walks in on u purgin?? its so hard 2 purge now shes watching everything i eat and checks the toilet for vomit!! i cant stop but shes makin it hard 4 me!

gd qustion.. say u ate 2 fast... i no she wont fall 4 it hey..

i said that.. didnt work.. shes still checkin the toilet.. wants me 2 see a doc.. No Way!!

I m0ved hme. My m0m is checkin my evry mve.. My m0m n c0usins sed dat if i dnt start eatin, dey gna pt me in d h0spital eatin dis0rda facility agnst my will n ave me f0rce fed.. Im s0 scared dat dey gna trick me n tke me der any day nw.. Im axually terrified.. I lyk seein my hip b0nes stick 0ut n my ribs. I made it, all d way. I cnt bliv im sayin dis th0. Im rly s0 scared sumtn gna happn. I keep blackn 0ut n faintn. My heart cramps n my tummy aches. I dun0 w0t 2 d0. I dnt want dm 2 pt me 0n a dam f0rce feedin w0tn0t..

Kill me

it will go away if you really want it to, its so hard i know, ive been a healthy weight for 9months now and i really ing hate it,im really unhappy about the way i look but ive always been unhappy, even when i was 6stone, im just under 9 now, if any of you need advise then you can inbox me, x x x