i no its like its ur best friend even tho u hate it

Im so scared. Im so weak. I cnt stand up, d r0om spins, i ave 2 sit dwn agn,my head between my legs. I eat half a sandwhich n in panic i thrw it up. I cnt eat. All i d0 is xist n c0unt cal0ries, mem0rize dm,divide dm, dispise dm. Headaches, tired, weak,sick, ins0mnia.. I dnt n0 maself anymre. I want it 2 g0 away. Bt wif0t it.. I dun0. ! Hw r u c0pin? Im pretty n suicidal! Hw d0 u c0pe wif it? Hw? Tell me hw. W0t d0 u d0, hw d0 i d0 it. My st0mach is in c0nstant dam pain! Gah!

Hun u need 2 go c ya doc.their there 2 help not 2 judge or critisize u.they can refer u 2 profesionals that can help u.pls get help hun.if i hadnt gone wen i did i would have been dead within 3 months.i was only 10 yrs old n weighed unda 5 stone.

i cnt.. dey scare me..

i agree i dont think i could ever tell my doc or any1 else. mia is jus 1 of those things cat live with her cant live without her.
i hate wat it does to me but without it id lose control! any1 else feel as trapped as i do?

im wit u on dat 1. i mean wtf wud happn wifot it, get fat agn, im neva eva goin der agn, id rada die dn b fat. sick maybe bt i dnt cre. beauty is pain n were payin it. lyk i used 2 b 120kgs, dats 240lbs, nw im 57kgs, 114lbs, i wont rest til im max 50kgs, 100lbs.

u mia or ana hun?

startd as mia.. bt nw ... jisses..