Hi i am Bob,as many of you know i am involved with a certain lady here. The problem i have is that from the ages of 11 to 14 i was raped!
I have only begun to open up here to her & this morning i said more,she as*ures me she still loves me and won't leave me & i believe her but my lack of well ..worthiness eats me up!
Wy can despite all her problems she find the strength to cope but all i feel is disgust at my self?
I want her more than anything but the thought is eating me inside that what if? what if she thinks i'm gay? what if she thinks i would be a threat to her sons? what if she thinks i will go after other men?
none of that is anyway true in my feelings but i imagine so badly that it is in her head!