Ma ex did it 2 me i left 5 yr ago he denys it thou

i bin married 16 yrs n hubby always ad bad temper. he as always joined datin sites, 1 min says it 4 me cause he wana 3 n says i would like it n the next says he like lookin at pics n other times denys he belongs 2 any! he even met a man once without tellin me, 2 see if he was wat he wanted 4 me. i hate the whole idea n always av done.

he gets angry n shouts at me n other nite he kept hitting me all over wit his belt. he said it was cause i accuse him of lying. i dont, i be 2 scared too.

i no he is liar but never would say it, tis 1st time. never 2 him. i suffer from arthritis n cant walk without help. he is my carer so i no he under stress. i dont no wat i do 2 upset him. i always b polite n never question him. i just scared 2speak.

wen he bein nice, he ask me wat wrong n i just say im in pain which always am from arthritis. if i say i dnt no wat i do 2 upset him he loses his temper n starts shouting n sometimes *its me

i now so scared n get blamed 4 things i dnt do. he as never gave me money, i always av 2 ask 4 tings, 2 scared 2 do tat now! he does shopping n everything.

i just clean house. always bin tat way. i would never b rude, wouldnt dare n i am now really depressd. i even get accused of sending him e-mails from dating sites!

tat why im on my mobile, im scared 2 use my puter now. he still accuse me though n he no i aint bin on it.

i just wana no wat im doing wrong. if i ask him he just get angry. please can any1 tell me wat im doing wrong n i no he under pressure being my carer n all but i dnt even wana sleep wit any1 else but he says i will like it n he doing it 4 me

he always bin like this but now he getting worse. can any1 tell me wat im doing to make him tis way. i no it hard wen u only hear half the story but i am just so scared but luv him so much, i just wish he would tell me wat i do wrong instead of accusing me of things i dont do.

sorry 2 trouble u all, u av ur own probs but thanks 4 allowing me to speak a bit bout ow i feel x x is tis abuse?